Saturday, June 7, 2008
Am I the Failure Child?
Does every family have to have a good child and a bad child? I'm one of two children, I have a younger brother. My brother just graduated from Marine bootcamp and while I'm proud of him for making it through, I feel like I'm a failure because he accomplished this and I haven't done anything to match it. If I had gone to college straight out of high school and gone every year I would have graduated a year ago. I could be working in my career by now if I'd just perservered and gone to school like a good little girl. It's not to say that I don't have a lot to be proud of but I have nothing that makes my parents proud like my brother does. I've always felt this way. I played sports in middle school and my parents would attend when they could. My brother wrestled in high school and they didn't miss a meet because my Dad wrestled in high school. So what if I wasn't the best at sports, didn't I still deserve to be supported? My brother had behavioral problems in school and he was always rewarded when he behaved, while I was always good and never rewarded. I love my brother and I'm so proud of him for getting his life together but I can't help feeling jealous of all the praise he's been getting lately. I'm tired of people thinking that just because I'm the good kid I don't want praise for doing good things, and I don't want it to be expected of me. Sometimes I really feel like I should just do some really questionable things so that when I do something good I'll be rewarded for it.
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